Across the Void

Whispers of Mars [Chapter 3]

The Medbay didn’t have any windows to the outside. The only light was from those above, coming on and shutting off as they desired. If it wasn’t the light keeping Cecil awake, it was the coming and going of people from beyond the privacy curtain, clinging to the sides of his bed in the already cramped space.

Those beyond spoke in low voices, some he recognized, others he didn’t, followed sometimes by the nurse’s responses. They could have been speaking of him, or of something completely different, regardless of his presence there mere feet away.

It was his thoughts sometimes that kept him awake, thinking of memories that seemed to be fragments in the web of his mind, each bit holding unknown importance. Sometimes the faded memories came to him as dreams, finding him when sleep managed to grab a hold of him.

Cecil

His name came to him, awaking him as it had many times during the past days. He listened again for Agrippa’s voice, or Maria’s, but he realized that the voice belonged to neither.

The medbay was dark and silent. A gap in the curtain glinted with tiny LEDs of equipment waiting to be used, to test or diagnose or fix or dispense whatever was required.

Cecil hadn’t stood since his arrival into the medbay, but his feet knew how to find their way to the ground, even if the rest of his body hadn’t had time to rest and recover. The pattern had been drilled into him after hundreds, if not thousands of nights in the past.

The USS Tunkasila, a destroyer. The USS Havasu, a patrol ship. The USS Hawaii, a submarine. Cecil still remembered the nights of rotations, departing the tight bunks as another was awaiting their own rest in the same spot. The bedding collected their odors, and after a while, even with washing, the three inhabitant’s smells would combine together until it belonged to no single individual.

Cecil smelled the odor of unwashedness upon himself as he shifted to his feet. It was time to get back to work, he told himself. The socks on his feet gripped the cold metal ground with tiny rubber nubs. The curtain crinkled as he pushed past it. The plastic line providing him with fluids held him back, followed by the yanking of the needle at the end of it. The tape holding the device to his skin pulled away cleanly, followed by the sharp, left to dangle on the end of the tube.

The automatic door, the noisy door, with its slow whoosh which had wormed its way into his mind, was just beyond. Cecil stumbled to it, and it opened gracefully for him. The air outside was noticeably cooler. The walls beyond were illuminated with dim, orange— almost red— lights that glinted at him.

The walls held his weight as he marched forward. Beyond them were electrical conduits powering the systems, the air controllers and ducts feeding everyone oxygen and scrubbing the CO2, and the computer systems making sure that everything worked as it should. The metal shielding was marked with smooth panels and rounded rivets, interrupted by vents and grates and control panels and vinyl stickers marking directions or locations of important equipment. Everything there had been constructed on Earth, impossibly far away, and brought there for the needy few to begin their lives there anew.

Cecil’s feet found the path, one foot after another. The blocks of structures littering the tiny fraction of the face of the crater there were interconnected by long pathways of flexible material, insulated from the thin atmosphere and uncompromising weather and permeating dust of the beyond. Cecil clung the best he could to the tightly-knitted fabric, rough and somehow soft to his touch. From the blurry plastic windows dotting the catwalk, he could see that night had fallen, sucking the light from the beige sky.

In every direction, the gentle slope of the crater rose up. Somewhere on the edge of the crater was the location where Cecil, Agrippa, and Markus had descended into the ground, encountered the oppressive heat, seen the glimmer of the pool of water.

Cecil

Cecil’s long fingernails found the individual threads of the canvas wall, and the tiny, slick fibers woven in to patch the long sections together. He found himself on his knees, pressing against the north-facing window, fingers tearing at the fabric. The loops of the stitching began to come loose, one by one, and the edge of the panel began to fray.

A red flashing glow permeated the halls, followed by a low buzz. Cecil held at his ears and crouched to the ground on his knees. The footsteps pounded the ground and echoed, approaching. In a flash of dark hair, Cecil felt the weight of another person upon him, attempting to pull him up and away from the wall. From the opposite direction down the hall came another, this time with louder and more rhythmic footsteps.

“Cecil?”

“I have him,” said the voice in Maria’s sweet yet worried tone.

“What is he doing out here?”

“I… I don’t know. I should have…”

“Let me help you get him up.”


The lights came back on. Cecil was back in the hospital bed, and the older bald man paced back and forth. Maria yanked on Cecil’s hand and extended his fingers. Several trails of blood had found their way across the blanket in his lap. His fingertips and nails ached. The nurse crushed his fingers against each other and began to wrap them in a tight bandage.

The door whooshed open. Agrippa turned back and faced the man in the doorway, shaking his head.

“He’s back now, is he?” The big, unknown voice asked.

Agrippa nodded. “Just fine. He didn’t resist.”

“Did you see what he did back there?”

Agrippa nodded again, slowly. “I don’t even know…”

“Figure it out. Ms. Ramirez, come see me when you’re done caring for the patient.”

The nurse looked up from her work on Cecil’s hands. “Y-yes, commander.”

Her touch was soft and caring. Cecil found himself dozing off once again.


The light was on once again. The curtain was open a slight amount. The dark-haired nurse sat across the room, back to him, hunched over the counter. “Maria?”

The woman sat up with a start. “Yes, Cecil?”

“What are you doing?”

“A report.”

“A report?”

“On… my failure to be at my post. The doctor needed help next door with his experiment last night. It was my fault.”

Cecil felt at his face without thinking and found the taut bandage around the tips of his fingers. “Your fault… for… something I did?”

Maria turned the stool back suddenly. “Don’t think too much of it. You are the patient, and I am here to care for you.”

“For me… Maria…”

“Yes?”

“I’ve heard that name before.”

“You’ve said that before, as well.”

“I have?”

Maria smiled weakly and stood up, approaching. “Cecil, tell me what you remember about last night.”

“Last… night.”

“Never mind.”

Cecil blinked his eyes. The headache was sudden, pounding in his forehead. He held his hand to his face. “I have… there is…”

Maria frowned. “We haven’t had you on the Saline since early this morning. You’re probably dehydrated. Let me get you a fresh needle.”

Cecil managed to look past the bright light as the nurse filled amongst her supplies. “Nurse… how far away… is home?”

Maria paused. “You may know better than me. Millions of miles.”

Cecil shivered and nodded. “Do you think… they would send me back?”

The nurse trotted back and hung a fresh, clear full bag of saline on the nearby hangar before taking Cecil’s elbow in her grasp. “I don’t have the ability to answer that. If this mission would ever permit it… it would have to go through the agency… the commander before that, even.”

“The… commander—“ Cecil winced, a fresh pinprick to his arm as the IV line was inserted.

“I’m sorry.”

“No, it’s—“

Maria lowered her head. “We’ll restart you on the regiment of supplements soon. You may be suffering from withdrawals. At least you have some strength still left in you, even if you haven’t gotten any solid food in your for a while.”

“What do you mean?”

“About?”

“My strength?”

“The other night…”

“What about then?”

“Never mind. Get some rest. I will remain here if you need anything else to make you feel more comfortable.”

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From A Deep Slumber

Whispers of Mars [Chapter 2]

Cecil

“Cecil, do you hear me?”

Cecil

“I don’t think he’s fully awake.”

“Give him time.”

Cecil

“Can’t you give him something?”

“Nothing that won’t have an ill effect on him.”

Cecil

A weight sat on Cecil’s chest. He attempted to grab at his sternum, but the IV in his arm stopped him.

“Do you hear me, Cecil?” The soft UK accent spoke at him. “Stay put. Just speak to me if you can.”

“Who… is calling… my name?”

“Just me, Cecil. Don’t worry. You’re in a safe place.”

Cecil listened for the other voice, one he couldn’t place. The pale lights above on the ceiling were blurry as he forced his eyes open. The shadow of one, two people hovered above him.

“Who…?”

“Agrippa.”

“Agrippa,” Cecil repeated.

Agrippa was the man with the UK accent, and the bald head, and a creased forehead. Cecil attempted another deep breath. The weight was still there. He coughed.

“Don’t force yourself, Mr. Ruiz.” Another voice spoke. It was a third voice, yet another unfamiliar one.

“Where…?”

“You’re in the command block. The medical bay. You’ve… been here for about a two weeks.”

“Mr. Ruiz,” the new, feminine voice spoke to him. “I have the duty to inform you of your condition. Do you wish to hear it?”

Cecil looked at Agrippa, before searching the edges of his site for the source of the voice. “I don’t remember.”

Agrippa smacked his lips and sat up, away and out of Cecil’s view. “How far back do you remember, exactly?”

“Remember… the tunnel… a glimmer.”

“Cecil…” The older man shook his head. “Do you remember… removing your helmet?”

“Agrippa, I would refrain,” the woman spoke.

“We came across a… phenomenon, something natural of course, and… something came over you.”

The woman cleared her throat. “Mr. Ruiz, while you are in relatively good condition now, when you came in… the prognosis then was acute hypoxia and heatstroke.”

“Markus bruised your ribs too, it seems, when trying to resuscitate you.”

“Markus…”

“I see, you likely don’t remember him,” Agrippa concluded, tapping his arms on the edge of the bed. “I suppose we should bring him in too. Maybe hearing his voice would help you remember?”

“Mr. Agrippa,” the nurse spoke up. “I have been directed to run some further tests now that Cecil is awake. I appreciate your concern, but I recommend another visit at a later time.”

Agrippa hesitated on the words and stood. “Ah, understandable. I shall return. Thank you, Maria.”

The footsteps echoed across the floor as Agrippa exited, followed by the whoosh of the automatic door, separating the clean, neat area of the medbay from the main hallway. Cecil said the name over and over in his mind, the name that Agrippa had said.

“Yes?” The woman asked suddenly, seemingly unprovoked.

Cecil held his breath. His chest hurt once more with a dull pain. “Huh?”

“You said my name?” Maria said sweetly. The edges of Cecil’s blurry sight revealed only locks of dark hair.

“I… did?” Cecil said to himself and repeated out loud. “Maria…”

“Yes?”

“No…” Cecil shook his head weakly. “Where have I heard that name before?”

The nurse breathed out through her nose slowly. “You know I’ve seen you here before, for the routine check-ins. Sometimes nurse Paul, but mostly me.”

“Yes… of course. Maria… but I’m sure I’ve heard the name elsewhere.”

The nurse shifted about on her hard-soled shoes and moved away from the bed to busy herself with other things out of Cecil’s view. “I’ll have you know that I am not stuck in this medbay, nor this block at all times. You’ve perhaps heard my name or seen me… in the cafeteria?”

“Is that so?” Cecil hummed. He blinked his eyes. With his free hand, he reached up and felt at his face. The skin under his touch was leathery and tender. His hair bristled all along the back of his head and neck from being cut short, like it had been in the past. “Nurse?”

“Yes, Mr. Ruiz?”

“How bad off am I?”

Maria snuffled. “As I said, your physical condition is back to normal.”

“I… see. The… the project—“ The thought returned to Cecil’s mind suddenly.

“Whatever project you were involved in, I imagine, can wait.”

Cecil attempted to get his eyes to focus on the bright lights glowing on the ceiling above. He couldn’t remember the details of the project, but only that it was important. “Nurse…”

“Cecil, I’ll ask you to continue to rest. You need time for the medication to exit your system.”

“Am I… out of commission?”

Maria let out a low, sorrowful sigh, and clacked her shoes back to the side of the hospital bed. “No. And if it were my decision, I would say that you will be clear shortly, but… you’ve yet be evaluated by the others.”

“The others?”

“I will speak no more, Mr. Ruiz. I… I’m sorry. Rest, please.”

Cecil bit at his lip. The skin was tight and dry. In his peripheral vision was a tube dangling down from an elevated sack of saline. The individual drips seemed to gleam in the bright light as they descended the clear line and into his body. He began to drift off again, while the nurse felt at his arms and pulled on his legs and listened to the sounds of his insides still seeming to work as they should deep inside his chest. Some minutes later, the lights dimmed to their lowest setting, and the nurse’s footsteps trailed off.


Cecil

Cecil

“Cecil— ”

The whoosh of the medbay doors came to his ears. It was the sound of them closing. The light was at a level slightly higher than halfway.

The sound of his name wasn’t them calling for him, but rather discussing him, his condition. There was the UK accent, from Agrippa, and the low southern drawl from Markus, and a third voice. The voice was from a large man on the edge of his vision. Cecil had heard the voice before, but the stout body of the man it belonged to was nothing he could recall in any form.

“You just tell me what you think. I trust your opinion.” the large voice spoke, then trailed off out the loud doors.

The footsteps of the other two closed in on the bedside. Cecil feigned sleep. “Cecil,” Agrippa called his name.

“Yes?” He mumbled.

“Did we wake you? If you’re up to it, there are some things we want to ask you about.”

The IV in Cecil’s arm lodged itself deeper as he attempted to sit up, his eyes flickering open. “I… want to know… too.”

The creak of the stool being pulled up to the edge of the bed echoed about the compact room. “Here. Have a seat, Agrippa.”

Cecil focused on the dark man behind Agrippa, the drawl belonging to Markus.

“Thanks. Cecil— maybe you can tell us better now what you remember from… the time down there. Now that the drugs have worn off.”

“Down there…”

“In the old lava tube.”

“The drill… it was heavy.”

“You took off your helmet,” Markus spoke up, a wariness in his voice.

“I took it off? Outside… the station?”

Agrippa cleared his throat. “Do you have any idea of why you did that, Cecil?”

“It was… hot.”

Agrippa hummed and glanced back at Markus. The dark man shook his head, arms folded to his chest. “Cecil, your… suit was compromised. It was my fault… a seal along the base of the helmet. Your O2 recycler began to take in heat from the outside. Let the heat inside your suit. In any other situation…”

“That’s enough, Mark. This wasn’t any other situation. Has the nurse spoken to you further yet, Cecil?”

“Hypoxia?”

“Your suit depressurized when you removed your helmet. Luckily we had the spare tank to get it back to normal. Markus managed to get the water out of your lungs, too.”

Cecil blinked his eyes and sat up further. The cold air met with his bare shoulders as the blanket slid down his front. “Water? Water…”

The older man leaned forward on the stool. “Do you remember?”

“The shimmer…”

“You were the first to notice it, shining off the light of your lamp. I don’t know what you were thinking then, but… you fell into it. To say we were surprised is an understatement.”

“Of all places to drown, a planet with no surface water,” Markus huffed.

Cecil glanced at the dark man and held his breath. He averted his eyes to the blanket before him.

“Long story short, Cecil,” Agrippa paused, pulling his attention back, “even though we got you breathing again, you were out for a long time. We had no idea we would get… the same person back to us. But the fact that you’re here and speaking with us now means a lot.”

The nurse’s loud shoes clacked across the floor. Her blurry silhouette in the white uniform had been leaned against the far counter, but Cecil hadn’t noticed until then. “In case you don’t remember… we treated you for heatstroke, mild facial burns, acute hypoxia, and… bruised ribs. Agrippa is right, though. The fact that you’re speaking to us now means a great deal.”

“Long term, though…” Agrippa shook his head.

“Long term, yes.” Maria nodded. “Only time will tell. And your own words and actions, Mr. Ruiz.”

Cecil nodded and rubbed at his face. The skin was still dry and taught and tender. No matter who he looked at, or how long he focused, none of the other’s features would come into focus. The faces, though, only seemed to look down at him.

“Perhaps we can clear up one last thing, Cecil,” Agrippa paused, “Can you tell us about your Prosopagnosia? If you are comfortable with speaking of it.”

“Such a word.” Markus fussed, “The one way to say that you’re the smartest one in the room.”

“I don’t mind.” Cecil complied.

Agrippa leaned on his knees and stared at the floor. “I’m intrigued, to be honest, if that is the right feeling. Before asking to take you with us, Martinez said that you were peculiar… shy he might have described you. After… the incident, I couldn’t help but wonder. I didn’t mean to pry into your file. It also helped me to explain it to Markus here.”

“You said… face blindness,” Markus spoke up, head shaking.

“Ever since I was young.” Cecil nodded. “I’ve never been able to… see people’s faces as they are. Nothing but a blur for me.”

“And Markus believed that you were snubbing him.”

“I was never able to make friends as a kid. I couldn’t tell anybody apart.”

“I’m sorry for what I said. But the fact that you made it to the Navy, too.” Markus spoke up. “How did you manage that, making sure you’re following rank?”

Cecil shook his head. “Honestly… it’s easier to look at insignia and decide who to salute. Commanding officers don’t care if you know their name or face, as long as you follow rank and orders and don’t make any mistakes. If anyone complained… my disability was on file.”

“You’ve outdone yourself, Cecil,” Agrippa praised.

Cecil stared at his hands, barely in focus in his eyes. “The project… we were getting… core samples.”

Agrippa straightened up. “That’s right, Cecil. I’m glad you remember. Because… Markus and I had to carry you back out, we didn’t get the one we came for. But I promise you, we’ve been busy since then. We went back with another person from systems and extracted another sample, got it and the drill back. The area is a prime location.”

“A prime location…”

Markus leaned on the edge of the bed by Cecil’s legs, hands on the metallic guard rail. “The only question is of that… aquifer down there.”

“Still running tests,” Agrippa assured them.

Cecil tried to examine the older man’s face. “The water…?”

“Another peculiarity.” The older man shrugged. “It’s not my field of expertise, but I suspect we will have the science department testing it to let us know if it is usable… even drinkable, maybe. At the very least, from your exposure… we know there is nothing plainly toxic about it.”

The nurse cleared her throat. Agrippa caught sight of her frown and changed the subject. “My department intends to take scans and put together a simulation of how may have formed. The lava tube system down there is quite the natural marvel, but the pool— or aquifer or whatever— is something unique on its own. There is also talk of having a station down there.”

The sight of the tunnel and the shimmering pool and the feeling of the cold water washing over him returned to Cecil in a sudden wave. The air caught in his chest, and the pain in his sternum forced him to hold it for longer than was comfortable. When reality caught back up to him, he noticed the gazes centered on him.

“Are you okay, Cecil?” Markus asked.

“Tired… just tired.”

Maria clapped her hands. “We should put any further talk on hold for today, then.”

Agrippa nodded slowly and picked himself up from the stool, passing it in front of him back to where it had originated. “Understood. Cecil…?”

“Huh?”

“You focus on getting your strength back.”

“I… will do that.”

Markus exited first through the noisy door without another word, and Agrippa followed after. Cecil settled back and pulled the blanket back up over his shoulders. The nurse was at the opposite side of the room, fiddling inside an open cabinet. When she turned back around, a square sealed pouch was held in her grasp.

“I need to apply this to your skin, Mr. Ruiz,” she said, beginning without waiting for his response.

Her cool fingers and the cold cream made contact with his skin “Maria.”

“Do you intend to wear out my name, Mr. Ruiz?” She said jokingly.

“You spoke of my evaluation.”

“I did.”

“What if I don’t pass?”

“What if you do?” She said back.

Cecil shut his eyes as her dainty fingers danced over his brow. “What do you mean?”

“Never mind. Pay no attention to my words. The evaluation is not something worth worrying about, at least for this moment.”

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In Search of Something New

Whispers of Mars [Chapter 1]

The rover crawled along the red-brown landscape, tossing up clouds of dust behind its thick wheels. The slope of the old crater was gentle and weathered, carved by centuries or more of sandstorms, and dotted with crags that split the hazy horizon.

Cecil would have been able to hear the sound of the electric motors driving the vehicle, were it not for the thin atmosphere swallowing up most of the sounds that dared speak across the bare, lifeless surface of the red planet. The sounds in Cecil’s ears were instead the flow of air from the tank, the rough scratching of the underclothes grating against the lining of the suit, the metallic joints allowing him to move freely, and the hum of radio silence.

Two others were in the seats ahead of him on the rover, the fourth and final seat occupied by the oversized equipment, buckled in like they weren’t. Cecil held tight to the bar bolted between the driver and passenger seats with the form-fitting but somehow still clumsy glove. The fingertips were reinforced with rubber for extra grip, and the rubbing of it against the white-painted metal reverberated through his body.

The rocking of the vehicle and its lenient suspension was not any more jarring than his experiences in the past. What shook him rather was the expanse of nothingness, with the Altum Crater camp now far out of sight.

“Ruiz?” The driver asked. Markus was the man with the deep voice with an accent from somewhere in the south.

“Huh?” Cecil replied, returning his gaze to the space between the two men.

“I was asking what food you miss the most from back at home.”

“Oh, sorry. I suppose… tortillas. Fresh ones.”

Markus offered a puzzled hum, while the other man clicked his tongue in agreement.

“Sometimes it’s the simple things, Markus,” he said. Agrippa sounded older and was clearly from somewhere in the UK. “Mark didn’t believe me when I said good bread. Suppose we aren’t in a position for—“

The radio crackled on, interrupting Agrippa’s final words and cutting in with the grating sound of static. “Heads up. The GPS is reading that you’re close. Eyes on your instruments, Agrippa.”

“Understood.”

The older man extracted the tablet from under his arm and illuminated the screen. “Let’s see… start off west… twenty degrees, Markus.”

“Gotcha.”

Cecil held to the seat as Markus set in the turn. The rover and its engines continued to vibrate through the seat cushion. He held his leg against the equipment case, lodged at an angle between the front and back seats.

“Feeling okay, Ruiz?” Agrippa glanced back at him. Cecil couldn’t make out the man inside, only the reflection of his own helmet in the tinted visor.

“I’m fine.”

“I’m sure Markus doesn’t have to drive as fast as he is going. We still have plenty of daylight left.”

Cecil shook his head. “It’s not that.”

“Don’t baby him, Agrippa,” Markus spoke up tensely. “He can tell me himself if he’s getting carsick.”

“Fair,” the older man nodded.

“That is,” Markus said, his helmet shifting back. “Unless he feels he’s too good to speak to us.”

“Huh?” Cecil stammered, searching for the words.

“This isn’t the time for that, Mark,” Agrippa admonished.

“Whatever.”

Cecil peered down at his lap. The man in the passenger seat settled back with eyes upon his instruments, flashing with coordinates and a digital representation of the nearby topography.

“Why don’t you bunk in the general quarters, Agrippa? You can get to know a lot more people.”

“Who do you suppose I get to know better?”

“Nevermind. Some people just don’t mesh well with others. How close are we, you reckon?”

Agrippa hummed and peered down at the tablet again. “We have a few kilometers, but according to the scans, it should be in fairly plain sight. Ruiz… or Cecil, I’ve heard you prefer. I’m glad you could join us today.”

Cecil perked up at the mention of his name and the twisting of the man as he turned back once again. “I am… glad to be of service. At the very least, I am able to lend my experience of the equipment,” he said, glancing at the crate beside him.

The reverberation of the engines beneath them calmed, and Markus spoke up, hand stretched out over the front of the vehicle. “I think that’s it. What do you reckon, Agrippa?”

The landscape was interrupted by a tall outcropping that hugged the edge of the crater. Above was a set of jagged peaks, bare rock tamed and beaten by ancient storms. Scarring the face of the outcropping was a dark half-domed orifice, buried partially by a deposit of red sand.

Markus edged the rover to the edge of the drift until they were close enough that the headlights shone against the rough surface. In one touch of the controls, the vehicle cut power and locked its wheels up.

Markus was the first to step down off the vehicle, followed by Cecil and finally, stiffly, Agrippa. “There’s no way we’re getting the rover any further.”

“That was to be expected,” Agrippa said back. He held his hand to the visor and looked back over the landscape. Cecil was at the side of the vehicle, unbuckling the case from the back seat. “You and Markus will share the weight, I suppose?”

“Fine,” Markus grumbled, looking back down the dark crevice. “How deep do you suppose it goes?”

“The heat signatures were pretty strong according to the satellite readings. We’re supposing it’s an old lava tube— they travel vertically in most situations, but depending on its age and how active this area has been in years past, it could have settled some.”

“So what you’re saying is that the hard part is going to be coming back out,” Markus asked, glancing back at the crate which Cecil had brought to the ground. “We can’t just… leave it down there when we’re done?”

“No. And we’ll have the core samples too. If those don’t give us sufficient readings, we will certainly need the drill once more in a different location. The faster we get going, the faster we’ll get back.”

Markus slumped his shoulders and marched back down to the side of the rover where the equipment compartment was located. Agrippa fiddled with the suit controls on his wrist, illuminating the head-mounted lamp and tuning his radio to the long-distance channel.

“Station Command, this is Agrippa, over.”

“We’re receiving you, Agrippa, over.”

“We’re at the location. Record current coordinates. We’ll likely be going dark for the time being. Over.”

“Understood. Over and Out.”

Agrippa looked up at the sky one last time before adjusting his gloves. Markus was leading the crate up the incline by its first handle, while Cecil trailed behind. Their lights danced around the mouth of the tunnel as they hefted the weight of the case over the mound.

The flow of rubble and sand deposited at the base of the strange tunnel’s entrance casted long shadows across the ground as their lights found purchase on the tunnels. Agrippa made his way first, holding to the rounded wall as he made his way down, illuminating a secondary flashlight in his hand.

Cecil could hear his breathing in his own ears as the work of hefting the case caught up to him. Markus pulled the both of them along, holding one of the side handles of the crate as he shifted down the loose ground sideways. The opposite side of the luggage dangled from Cecil’s taught arms. He breathed out slowly as they found the solid ground.

“Alright back there?” Agrippa’s radio chipped in.

“It’s not too much,” Markus huffed. “I’ll give you the benefit of the doubt, Cecil. I’m just going to assume you’re a quiet guy.”

“Enough.” Agrippa paused. “This isn’t the time or place.”

“What puzzles me is how he ever made it this far, speaking only ever in single sentences every few minutes. Only when he’s spoken to.”

“Save your breath, please.”

“I know exactly how much breath I have left to expend. These suits are my job. We have plenty, including the backup I brought out of protocol.”

Agrippa jerked back, shining the hand-held light back, flashing the beam through Markus’ visor. “I will be speaking to your division head. You’ve known the man for a half-hour, and yet you’ve managed to profile him.”

Markus held his hand in front of his visor. “Actually, we went through training together. Back on Earth. Came over frozen nearly side-by-side. Now he won’t even acknowledge me.”

“I’m sorry.” Agrippa seemed to stare back past Markus to Cecil as he managed to speak up for himself. “I don’t do well with faces. It’s been that way all my life. It’s nothing personal, I simply can’t attach a name or voice to what someone looks like.”

“And you’re afraid that you’ll end up speaking to someone you don’t intend to?” Agrippa added.

Markus glanced back and forth between the two others. “That so?”

Agrippa turned back to the deeper end of the tunnel. “Don’t be sorry, Cecil. The agency decided that your knowledge and technical prowess was greater than any little downfall you might have.”

Cecil listened to the words and nodded, even though both of the others weren’t looking. In the suits, everyone looked the same, with no face to have to hope to find a feature in. All he needed to pick up on were their voices for that day only.

The tunnel evened out, both in elevation and smoothness. The stone was hard and smooth, but the boots gripped well enough, despite their hard plodding. The others were silent as their flashlights danced around above at the slight rippling of the ceiling, and the distant inky darkness of the beyond. Markus grunted every once in a while, mostly while switching hands. Agrippa cleared his throat from time to time. The screen of his tablet glowed as it mapped the naturally formed passageway with radar-like signals.

A small drop of liquid fell from Cecil’s brow and onto the inside of the visor. He heard his own breath suddenly, heavy. “Is it hot for anyone else?”

Markus rolled his shoulder, shifting the crate and allowing him to check the readout on the wrist of his suit. “It’s… above 50 centigrade… damn. But I made sure the heat exchangers were in working order. Quit complaining, we’re in the same boat.”

The system inside the suits pumped liquid through tiny tubes in a big circuit, concentrated about the vital areas, and expelled the heat through fins at the back of the suit. Cecil could almost feel it, surging about his body like a second heartbeat.

Agrippa paused and glanced back, blocking most of the way. “There’s no harm in asking to take a break. After all, Markus says that we have plenty of air.”

“No, I’m fine.”

“How far do we need to go?” Markus asked, his breath elevated.

“We’re still reading a descent, even if it doesn’t seem like it.”

“It will seem like it when we’re heading the opposite direction.”

“Of course.” Agrippa replied, “But the lower we go, the more likely we are able to extract a good core sample. You two managing with that?”

“Well enough.”

Agrippa offered a short nod, the light of his helmet moving along with his head. The march began once again, creeping slowly deeper. The sweat continued to pool around Cecil’s hairline, and he could only focus on the movement of the crate between him and Markus, his fingers wrapped numbly around the handle. The perspiration dripped down his temples and stung the corners of his eyes, and continued down to the rigid but padded collar of the suit where the helmet connected to it.

Still leading the group, Agrippa stopped suddenly and held his hand to the air. “We’re heading back up now, just slightly. This may be the lowest point we’ll be able to reach safely.”

Markus groaned and tossed down his end of the crate. Cecil stained against the sudden shift of weight and dropped the load suddenly. It was nearly silent in the thin atmosphere but created a sole, solid vibration through the ground. Markus glanced back, but the visor gave no indication of his intention.

“Breathe for a moment,” Agrippa directed. “Then let’s get this set up. How’s the air over there, you two?”

Markus glanced at his own wrist, then reached across and grabbed at Cecil’s wrist readout. “Good here. Ruiz is a little low. I guess that goes with not getting out much. But it should last.”

“Monitor that for me.”

Cecil shook his head, sending more droplets of sweat about the skin of his face. Before Markus could move, he knelt to the ground and turned the case towards him, flicking open the latches.

Inside was the core drill for their task that day. Once set up on its frame, the computer system would take control of the mechanism that would drill out the pen-sized hole down into the ground to pull a sample and to determine its density and makeup. Cecil’s department had been holding onto it for that very day and mission. He began to assemble the finely engineered pieces of the stand that the mechanism would rest on while it did its work.

Agrippa shined the light on a flat area of the old tunnel. Markus worked quietly with Cecil to heft the framing in place, followed by the more delicate controller and the spool of flexible boring line.

The old man interfaced with the device from his tablet and started the process. The drill guided itself down and began its attack against the hard surface. Cecil took a long breath in the moment of rest and shined his light about the unseen reaches of the tunnel.

“Looks good,” Agrippa commented before glancing at Cecil. “I wonder how far it goes.”

Cecil shifted about the other two and shined his light further. In the inky depths, the beam of his light caught the flash of something reflective against the ground. His feet moved on their own, attempting to seek out the glimmer once more.

Agrippa spoke up as he began to exit the ambient light and low din of the drill working away. “Don’t go too far.”

“There are only two ways out from here, Agrippa. He won’t get lost.”

Cecil didn’t hear the words, despite the radio resting next to his ear. The walls of the natural tunnel were dull with a glassy sheen, but the glimmer was not from the hard surfaces. The reflecting light beyond was not entirely from Cecil’s suit, either. He couldn’t look back to the others. The tunnel opened up, the walls crumbled and etched by erosive forces, and the ground was covered by sandy rubble. At the center of the strange room was a wide pool, seeming to be of water, glassy, and reflecting a natural light above. The orifice in the ceiling continued upward, emitting what seemed to be the light of day from the surface.

“Cecil, head back this way.” Agrippa spoke to him over the radio, “The drill is starting to reach its mark. We’ll need to you monitor its performance to make sure it’s within operating temperatures, though. Markus, go after him.”

“Sure thing.”

Cecil shook the words from his head. They didn’t mean anything to him. If anything, they were like the chirping of birds, or the sound of wind rippling long grass, or the sound of honking cars on a busy road. Cecil reached for the seal and the latch at his neckline, holding the helmet to the rest of the suit.

He didn’t need it anymore. He took his last breath. Markus appeared, light shining at him as he removed the unnecessary device. The other man’s helmet shook at him, and the sound of his voice was frantic and distant in the speaker, now at Cecil’s waist. He set it down before Markus could react.

Cecil looked down upon the pool. The air was cool, and it dried his sweat. Markus grabbed at his arm. He sucked in a breath. His lungs burned. His legs felt weak. The hold on his shoulder was weak too. He met with the water as his body failed. The water was cool and replaced the void in his lungs that called for oxygen. There was a sound of loud footsteps on the hard ground. The sound was drowned out by the splashes of water and loud abrading of bubbles against his skin and body. He was at peace.

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I’m Rewriting Mother of Mars (For all of you.)

For those people who have been here for the beginning, you likely remember ‘Mother of Mars,’ aka my first proper, full book. The book that this site was sort of built on. And after many years and 7 other full books and countless short stories, I’m coming back to it– to give it a complete rewrite, perhaps the way it should have been. And because I have too many other projects here, it’s coming here to read for free as yet another serialized release. Coming soon!

Always Something New

A micro-essay. Originally submitted to but not published by 3rd party publisher.

School returns to us, full time and in person.  As a vocation and an institution, education has its triumphs and its challenges.  Some are new for us this year, and others persist.  The current state of the world intensifies all such things.

The vocal minority yells ‘no new normal’ even though the quieter and more pensive voices mumble that such things aren’t and were never intended to be so and that hopefully, the end is in sight.  That we won’t have to always do the things that we have been putting up with.  There are those trying to use their best judgment to get us through this.  We, teachers, have always done this on a smaller yet very relevant scale- acting as those even, constant, voices for the people that don’t always settle without dispute and hassle.  No new normal, but for children, especially at the elementary level, wearing a mask and distancing at solo desks, and sanitizing between every rotation of the day is normal; it’s been that or being in front of a Chromebook and teleconferencing for the past nearly two years.  That’s just about a half, a quarter of these small peoples’ lives.  

I taught on Zoom all last year, and also supported my fellow teachers with the technology that was make-or-break for just getting through the day.  I worked with students learning new functions on their Chromebooks for the first time, seeing only their frustrated faces in a tiny frame among a jumble of others.  How it would have been to be there in person, to guide their fingers to practice scrolling up and down a page, or to lead them to the proper icon or link or tool with my own hand.  

Now we’re back.  We’re catching up on things that were lost and forgotten, or worse, never even covered last year.  The first many lessons have been review.  Those who got half-days in person last year are getting used to being back for many more hours  There’s one silver lining though- all of that independent learning and troubleshooting and helplessly quiet observation forced many to have to discover and practice and learn new things, things that are now second nature.  Not just students, either.  My colleagues have all obtained a new level of technological independence after being forced to digitize what is effectively the entire school experience.  Their presence in the classroom- their demeanor, their guidance, and their expertise and lessons- was at one point all funneled down through a webcam, a microphone, and a virtual classroom.  

As an instructional aide, I get to visit most classes, K through 5th, and instruct them once a week.  I get to know the lay of the land pretty quickly.  I notice when the classrooms I go to are different from the week previous.

An email goes out about a possible or confirmed exposure or current case.  Everything is on a need-to-know basis.  I often don’t need to know, it seems.  We have smaller classes this year in general, which is good for everyone involved, but it is easy to tell when we are a few short.  Young kids only know that their classmates are out sick, nothing new or groundbreaking for them.  A cough is just a cough to them, but to us, it isn’t.  At least most have masks that fit well.  Not all parents have put the thought in that they aren’t one size fits all, and likely some parents simply can’t put that much thought or money in.  Whether parents are trying or not, the very least we can, we must do as an establishment, is to pick up the slack.

The situation we’re all in is challenging, but if there’s anything that teachers know, it’s that if one is challenged by something enough, it can be turned into a strength.  On so many layers, we as educators, administrators, support staff, parents, even those in government- people in general- are in this together, and we can come out of this stronger.

I apologize for the lack of posts. I’ve been focusing on writing and slightly about the upcoming NaNoWriMo. Also video games. I’ve decided that with one book waiting to be edited, and another halfway done, I will be posting the entirety of my NaNoWriMo book as it is written this November here on the blog! Look forward to the details!

-Sandwich Sean